Using Instagram for other reasons besides stalking

Have you ever looked at other's blogs, just to motivate yourself?

I am a gym rat. I love working out. It's something i can control in my life. I love gaining muscles, getting stronger, adding weight. I'm not into "toning" i want to BULK. I've done a pretty good job of it so far, There's some muscles on my body i have never seen before.

 When i feel like i'm "slacking" i like to look at others blogs or photos on instagram. In life you need something you're dedicated to. Something that you have to turn to when all else spins . Something that remains constant. Mine is fitness. Outdoor, running, crossfit, HIIT, classes, yoga, lifting, especially lifting. I love seeing veins pop in my arms and shoulders. seeing muscles without flexing :)

Why does this blog not have autocorrect? *sigh*

Looking at others can be motivating. Not to necessarily compare yourself, but to see what you can become. Something to look forward to, a goal to achieve. And this is true of other interests; cooking, paleo, photography, couponing,  shopping, outdoors, animals. Just pick something you love! Look up blogs, look up photos. It's a great way to explore what's out there.

For instance, i was looking for motivation. I saw on instagram someone had posted their favorite instagram site. So i went to it. Wow! It's made by a personal trainer. She posts pictures, AND videos of different workout routines. and let me tell you, that girl's booty is POPPING! Definitely a goal for the future!

Oh, and I'm going off steroids as of today :) Yay Thursday!

If anyone wants to see my Instagram, user name is desirees703

and GO SEAHAWKS!!

Ulcers are not a man's best friend

Feeling like a big ol' blob of air today.

Last night, i wasn't feeling so hot. Then the pain started-sharp pain in my left lower side. Like i'm feeling the ulcers forming. I haven't had an issue with that in the last 5 weeks of taking my new meds. It was stop-what-im-doing painful. I actually took a percocet. I never do that. It makes me so bloated, can't even suck in my gut bloated. The weird thing is though..i went to the bathroom right before bed, and i was completely..solid. Which was actually painful. Ulcers and solid poop don't mix. Blood. Everywhere.

My ulcers bring on bleeding, and mucus. And some kind of discharge. It's just a mess. So then i have gas, and bloating, and discharge...gross. I actually look a little pregnant right now. Not a good look for me, air baby.

It happened in the midst of me crying about my dog.

Ya see, my pretty baby broke his hip when he was 8 months old. We couldn't afford surgery at the time, so we just let it be. It healed incorrectly, of course, and he has an obvious limp. It caused him pain on long walks. So a year later, after i had saved up every penny, He got it fixed. Well, in theory.  He got an FHO, where they remove the ball of the hip and create a muscle joint. He has been doing well the last year, but the last couple weeks he has been "cracking" a lot. Whether it's his hip or another joint, I am unsure. And he has been limping more. Maybe he's not getting enough exercise, and I need to take him on more long walks. All i know, is my baby is not 100% and I hate it. I don't want him to hurt. When he hurts, I hurt.

In the midst of me getting all emotional about that, the pain started. F you ulcers. Sorry, I can't help it. Do me a favor, don't google anything about your disease unless you're able to avoid negative thoughts about the future.